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My Slippers

The East Village had a uniform, and the West Village had a uniform. If you dressed in a crisp white shirt and pressed jeans for an evening at Waverly and Waverly on the west side, listening to the croonings of Jerry Scott at the piano, you’d never venture across town a half mile to The Bar on 2nd avenue, where the pool table gave you splinters and the bartender’s nipple rings glinted in the glow of everyone’s cigarettes. There was no middle ground. Doc Martens on the east, loafers on the west. Buzz cut east, fluff west. Sondheim west, The Clash east.

There were some who were brave enough to cross over. A few stood proud in their pristine Lacostes on the sawdust floors of the tawdry east. One or two wore their thrift-store jackets and ripped jeans and sang along lustily in the tuneful west. “Oh, What a Beautiful Morning!”

I, for one, frequented both sides, often and successfully, I might say. How’d I do it?

I didn’t resort to carrying a bag with a change of clothes. I didn’t grease my blown-out hair on the way east, or shine up my Docs on the way west. No, I had one simple bit of wardrobe. My smile.

I wore my smile like a beacon, like the lady in the harbor (remember her?). Come to me, you tired men, you poor masses of men. Yearn no more. Be free with me.

Was my smile always genuine? Never. It was the drugs, so many drugs. But for those few years I never walked alone. East to west, west to east, sometimes even north (and once across the river), I wore whatever I wanted, however I wanted, and every time I found men eager to bask in my smile.

That was then. Now, worn out, I smile infrequently. Never, actually. People on the street tell me I should smile. My sister asks, remember how your smile was your umbrella? But I prefer the mist now. All those years, east to west and back again I met men who saw my smile and for a moment forgot dress codes, forgot sickness, forgot death. My addiction served them but eventually, like that statue in the harbor, I felt I’d done my duty and it was time to fold my torch. At home I'm comfortable in my slippers, soles smooth as I walk back and forth on my worn carpet.

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Masha Zager's avatar

Glove

I found the glove at the end of the driveway, near the mailbox. When I told the police, they said they’d come back for it if they needed it, but they never did, so I still have it all these years later. I keep it wrapped in a bag in my closet, just in case.

My sister and I had matching pairs that our mother gave us for Christmas. They were fuzzy wool winter gloves, hers red and mine orange, with tiny white stars knitted into them. That Christmas was the last time I saw my mother, because after that visit, my father said she was too crazy to visit anymore. Delia and I cried and begged him to change his mind, but he said we’d thank him for it later on. Well, I never did, and Delia, who knows.

We wore the gloves every day, because we loved them. Mine were attached to a string that was threaded through the arms of my coat so they wouldn’t get lost, but because Delia was older, hers had no string and she stuffed them in her coat pockets when she went indoors. So it’s funny that she’s the one who lost the glove.

Though I do wonder how it came to be left behind. Did she open the car door and try to jump out before my mother turned onto the road? That would mean she changed her mind at the last minute, and was pulled back into the car. Or did she roll the window down and throw the glove out to let me know she wouldn’t forget me? Most likely, I’ll never know. My father thinks they changed their names and went to another state – I hope someplace where she doesn’t need gloves.

The other thing I wonder, always, is why my mother chose her instead of me.

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